Camp..

Wow..its really such a long time that i dint update my blog!surely,its not that im lasy..its because that im too busy!

Actually,i just came back from a camp in Dusun Minda Resort,Kuala Nerang.if you ask me where it is,i also dont know how to tell you..haha!its far away from city..somemore my dad says that sometimes you can find tiger nearby there..but i dont know that is it i can trust him because he always play jokes on me!

Well..my body is full of wound afta the camp.the activities that we have is really very interesting..and this include FLYING FOX and others.but something make me really very PAISEH is that while im playing flying fox,i get stuck at the half way..and all the people around laughing at me!really so bad these people..laughing at a pretty girl!wakaka..

There,i got many new friends..but most of them is younger than me.most of them only 15 or 16 years old..but anyway,when they guess my age,all of them got the wrong answer..they says that im only 15!oh my god..im already 18 and going to be 19 in a few month later!

Anyway,im really happy and enjoy myself in the camp..

And going to another music camp in December!

Hey friends,enjoy your holidays!

25 minutes

Even 1 second,everything can change..

Be honest!

I still remember last time when im still studying in kindergarten,whenever theres exam and test,my teacher ever wont forgot to tell us this:

"Do not see ur friend's answer and also dont let ur friends to see ur answer!"

I think that everyone also have this experience,right?everyone of us,have been taught to be honest in our exam by our teachers since we are still little kids.if a little kid also know this 'exam general rule',i really dont understand why some people who are almost same age as me,a matured person,still dont understand this rule.

Today,finally our exam had over.its really tired to be totured by the exam for such a long period of time..two weeks i think.but,what i really feel,is not the physically tired,but my mentally is even more tired than my body.

I dont really did good in my exam.my chemistry paper,is the worst paper that i have ever take before.i just can solve a few questions..the others one,i have to use my tank-----to BOOM all those questions!

Actually,i have a chance to get a better result in my chemistry paper..because pravin showed me his answer sheet.but,i just ignored him..i prefer to get a worse result rather than cheated everyone cause i know that i cant cheat myself.as if i get good result also,i wont be proud of myself because i know that im not deserve for it.

Anyway,there is SOMEONE,who cheated in many papers:MUET,pengajian am and so on.actually at first,i dont care if someone cheat in exam because its not my business at all.but,its quite over that this person,not only cheat in one or two subject..its more than that.

Honestly,i also cheated before in exam with my gang of friends when im stil in form one and form two.but last time,the purpose all of us copy the answer is because we just wana to pass up an answer sheet which has answer on it..at least not a blank paper for teacher!but when im more mature,i understand that it really mean nothing to copy the answer from others.if u got the first place in the exam also,u wont be proud of yourself and also dont dare to tell others that you got the first place because its not belongs to you..cause you din get it by your own.

But,this SOMEONE,cheated not because he dint study for his exam.actually,i think that he had study so hard before exam and for sure,he can get a good result.anyway,he not care wether how good his result is.what he wana,is to beat up the person who get number one in last exam.and..i think that maybe he had got it.just now,we get know that this SOMEONE,had beat up the last number one in the chemistry paper.anyway,none of us fell happy for him..because hes not deserve for it.sumore..he still dare to let us know how good his result is.

What is the purpose to be the best if you dint get it by yourself?it means nothing..right?as if all of us dont know that bout this matter also,theres still one person who know bout it..its yourself.you can cheat everyone,but you cant cheat yourself.

So..please be honest!

Can anyone tell me?

Yesteday after school,saw xin nian's message,ask me wether wana go out wit all of them,for a old friends gathering.but,i give her an excuse..actually its also not an excuse,because i really gona have my chemistry paper today.so,i was absent to the gathering.

Today,tong tell me bout what hapened yesterday while they were together.he said that its really a fun gathering..everione talk bout own's life.

Actually.i also dont know what really hapened on me.recently,i really lasy to hang out or go anywhere with them.i think maybe its because i got bad impression when last time me,tong,lyn n hwai hang out in cs.its not really a bad impression..just i fell that something had change.lyn and hwai closer..and me and tong closer.fell so strange..

Its me who had change,or everyone also had change?izit its my problem having this kind of feeling?

I really had confuss..bout friends..

Can anyone tell me?

Think carefully..

Yesterday night, i have a chat with jia wen in phone. we have chat a lot of things...and seems like hes also quite a friend to chat with.

Yesterday also, once again he wana me to become his girlfriend. haiz..seems like hes stil not understand what i have tell him last time.

Haiz..im really scared of all these love things by now. atually, love and couple relationship, is not this easy thing. its a deep knowledge..

So friends, next time before you wana start a new relationship, think it carefully. once u have make a mistake inthis stuff,even just a smal mistake, it will influence ur whole life.

Sad story between a guy and a girl...

Recently, my mood so bad.

That night, i have clear up everithing with ys.actually, and honestli, i dont wana just be simple friend with him. im just cheating him..and the most, is cheat myself. i reli duno wat i think..i duno wether im reli happy with this decision, or im sad of it.

Honestli, i dunwan to clear up everithing with him. its like..haiz, i also duno how to say. me and him, already in such a relationship almost one year. no ani improvement..more than good friend, but not yet couple. i duno how will this last for, and also dont dare to think about it.

Atuali, im not angry that he dunwan to couple with me. the main problem is,he always make me sad, hurt and disapointed. duno how many nights, i hide myself in my room, tearing for him.i never cry for anione although last time i break up with my ex-boyfriend. just him..

Wat i wana, atuali is very simple. i just wana share my hapi and sad with him...and also wana share his feeling or mood with. but,it seems like so hard for us...he always keep everithing by his own.although problems bout he and me, he also seldom tell me what atuali he think in his heart. i have to gues everithing..even include is it hes stil like me.

You always tell me that u will make me disapointed. u din try..how u know that u will disapointed me?i believe that, as long as u wana make me happy, sure you can make it. sometimes, trust yourself...

For sure, i hope that theres a new start for us. but i really dont know what u actually think by now..

Haiz..i really fell speechless for our relationship..